At the moment I am in a world where normal standards and values do not count. I am surrounded by books, copies, learning cards and posters,spending more time than ever before in the library, searching for books and copying chapters I will have to read afterwards, just to sum the up and learn the theories and facts by heart.
In this country, the weather does not affect the progress- no matter if it's sunny or rainy, I am tied to my desk, my couch and my bed (while reading), only being allowed to interrupt those procedures for cleaning, cooking or sleeping. And even at night, there are those dreams in which I am busy re-connecting the stuff I've learned. These rules need to be followed here, in exam-land, because otherwise you will fail to be acknowledged as a full citizen.
7 exams in half a year, each and every one divided into 3-4 single topic-fields which are not connected to each other. I select the topics myself, go book-hunting and forcing the copy-machin to do what I want. Every morning I tell myself that this will be worth it, that this period is about to be over by June 16- and after leavin exam-land, I will be able to breathe and LIVE again. I suppose that this journey to exam-land was necessary to now recall how wonderful life can and will be afterwards. However, as long as I am here, I give my best to be a good citizen.
